[It feels like the first time. Why does it feel like he's a virgin and this is the first time anyone ever... He swallows hard. Self control is what he has left to give. At the kiss over his heart, Eric sucks in his breath.]

Whatever you want. You can have whatever you want... anything...

[His voice is barely more than a whisper.

He doesn't deserve this. He's not good enough. But, this is Alan, and if Alan wants it, and he can give it, Alan will have it.]