ochitashinigami | Eric's Apartment

Thank you.

[If he had died and gone to heaven, he couldn't be happier.

He lays back, shifting and making himself comfortable.]

[It's a bit later but Alan comes from the kitchen with two mugs a plate carefully balanced on one of the mugs. He moves to settle down next to Eric holding out the mug of green tea.]

Think nothing of it, you do things like this for me all the time. A blanket and snack is hardly the same thing as making you carry books and sometimes me around. I put a bit of honey on the toast

[Eric tenses a little. He doesn't want to think about the attacks.]

There isn't anything I wouldn't do for you.

[He tries to force the memory of what he has done for Alan comes back, but he forces it down.]

How did you know I wanted honey? []

I know that and I - I can't say I wouldn't do the same if roles reversed.

[He grins and balances the plate carefully on his thigh handing Eric a slice.]

You always want sweet things and it's comfort food. I thought you could use a bit of that after being in the hospital and being sick.

[No, you wouldn't. You wouldn't do what I've done. That's what makes you special, and that's why I have to to do it.

But Eric keeps his thoughts to himself and accepts the tea and toast. He can't help but smile as he caresses Alan's hand as he does.]

It's nice that you know me. I like that. How are you feeling?

Shouldn't I know you? We've been together for years, Eric. It's only natural that I learn things about you and I'm the quiet kind that watches so it was really easy to pick up little details.

[He settled back sipping at his hot chocolate. His eyes closed and he sighed in bliss.]

I'm just glad to get you back home. A couple days back home and everything will be back to normal, I'm sure of it.

[Eric has to smile.]

I'm glad to be home. [He takes a bit of toast then a drink of tea. He smiles. It's good.] And I'm glad you're here. Thank you. For everything.

I'm glad you're home too. It was weird leave the apartment and all of that.

[He gestures a hand in an all encompassing motion the time away from what had become home, away from Eric. Not being able to talk to him and worrying about where the other was and if he was safe. He blushed glancing down into his drink.]

Don't thank me for just doing what comes naturally.

You didn't have any... problems... while I was ill. Did you?

[By problems he means attacks, but he won't say it.]

I... [Lying is no good is it?] I came close a time or two but not really.

[He had been close when he'd gotten the note - again the Jubilee called as well as a handful of times along the way.]

Don't worry so much. Please, Eric, you getting better is more important than fussing about my problems.

Alan...

[There is a lot he wants to say... a lot. The thought that Alan nearly had an attack frightens him, but the fact that it was nearly and not completely is good. He sets the tea aside and puts his hand on Alan's cheek.

Eric knows he's not in danger. He knows Alan still could be. IT's different. But, pointing that out seems on the verge of cruel.]

Alan just.. don't forget to take care of yourself too, all right?

Eric, really-

[He knows what Eric's holding back. It's not so hard to know given what they were talking about. He turned at that setting everything aside. He leaned into the touch and scooted closer.]

I do take care of myself. I just was worried and scared. I can't control that. I can't control what might happen and what makes me feel enough to to trigger an attack.

That was what I was trying to avoid, by leaving. But, I realize it was what upset you, too.

[He sighs, wrapping both his arms around Alan, holding him close.]

You did what you thought was best. I can't be mad at you for that. You always seem to do everything with my best interest in mind.

[He closes his eyes and moves sliding himself easily onto Eric's lap, his left hand coming up to touch his cheek, his right arm wrapping around his neck.]

Just next time tell me and let me be there or text me on the network if you're afraid you'll infect me, okay?

[It's all Eric can do to nod, feeling overcome by holding Alan so close after all this. He wraps both arms around the smaller man's waist and holds him tight against him. After a brief, forced laugh, he manages to make a joke.]

At least you'll know where to find me next time. Just peel me off the bathroom floor.

[It warm and he's comfortable settled right here. That was another thing he hated about the hospital was he couldn't do this, couldn't get closer than sitting at his bedside. Was it this bad for Eric when he was sick? Had this been just a glimpse of what it was like?]

I don't think I like it when you get sick but I'll peel you of any floor so I can bring you home to take care of you.

It's been a long day. We should get some sleep.

[Actually, Eric's feeling exhausted still, but he wouldn't say it directly. He doesn't let go of Alan, though.]

We should. Do you want to move to the bed? I'm sure we can prop you on enough pillows for you to be comfortable.

[He has no intentions of moving just yet and even if they do move to the bed he'll still be pressed as closing to Eric as he can be. After all of this it's the only way he'll feel better, feel right again is to be close to Eric.]

[Eric laughed a little, still holding him tight.]

Have I managed to charm my way back into your affections enough to be allowed to sleep in the bed with you?

[He peered at him and rolled his eyes, leaning in to kiss his cheek.]

I wouldn't make you sleep on the couch while you're sick and right now I don't think I could handle us being apart again. So if you can make it to the bed we can sleep in there together. Other wise I'm going to go grab a couple pillows a blanket and sleep out here with you.

[Perhaps it was a little childish and silly but it was the truth.]

[Eric chuckles as the kiss comes. He wraps his arms around Alan and holds him tight.]

You won't be without me. [The statement makes him smile.] And you're not going to sleep on the couch. I can make it.

[He laughs a little, stroking Alan's hair.]

And here I thought I'd worked my way back into your good graces.

[He quiets settling against his chest a bit, his hold on Eric tightening. Those words are comforting, sending relief through him.]

Good. [He grins and nuzzles against Eric's jaw.] Even if you couldn't you'd still make yourself make it to the bed, you're that stubborn.

[He sighs softly and presses a kiss to his jaw.]

You were never out of my good graces.

[Eric sighs, more like a purr as Alan is close, snuggling against him. He chuckles a little at the kiss. Eric's jaw is rough with stubble, but he's too tired to care.]

You made a good show of it, you know.

You know my temper. I was more relieved than anything.

[It was quiet whisper.]

Well maybe a little mad, too.

[He draws back, sliding form Eric's arms reaching out to help him up.]

Come on, let's get to bed. We deserve a good rest. I'll clean all this up in the morning.

[Eric purrs again, letting himself be pulled upwards.]

I'm really not so helpless I can't cross the room to the next one, you know.

[The rising makes him a little dizzy, and he won't be skipping and jumping, but he's all right to move.]

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